more than a month being at Jakarta…
having been thru ups and downs. running away from GOD the source of life, cause my life turn to great mess. My thought, my deeds, my plans, my everything everyday seem to be so meaningless. sometimes i force myself to hard causing worsen stress. in a very awkward state of life, my bad shape cause bad effects to my closest people. I get easily irritated with a very small things.
until one weekend, i realize that i have to turn my back, have to search and cling to the only source of peace, to GOD HIMSELF.
sometimes when we’ve been wandering so far for so long, then a feeling of alienation has been grown inside our heart. I felt that way. That feeling is used by devil to keep me away from the KEY – to HIS WORDS and TRUTHS that will set me free.
But then I remember HIS WORD – that His THRONE is a THRONE of GRACE. When we approach GOD in fear, we must have the feeling of unworthiness in front of HIM, the most HIGH. But HE said that HIS THRONE is a THRONE of GRACE. He is full of LOVE and GRACE, HE knows and longs to unite with HIS SPIRIT inside us. So, we have to overcome the feeling of condemnation inside us that was often effectively used by devil to prevent GOD’s power overwhelmed us once again and set us free.
Once we have successfully pray with every regret in our hearts for our sins; we may still feel alienated from GOD. but, I think this is natural; let us recall something, when we are away for a long time and loss any contact with our friend; then the day we met again for the first time do we feel perfectly united straight away? I dont think so… that’s why we need to build the relationship with our GOD day by day. don’t stop even though we still have the alienation feel in our heart. watch our that the devil can use it to fool us once again.
Praise GOD that HE is patient and kind. Just in HIS every deeds. Perfect in HIS every plans. Timely in HIS every acts. He holds the universe on HIS palm. HE rules from the beginning to an end. Soli Deo Gloria.
